I am now one with sorrow Define me as all that is unholy

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 19:16:36 GMT

You Are a Boston Terrier Puppy

Aggressive, wild, and rambunctious.
Deep down, you're just a cuddle monster.

That's the same kind of dog I have!! I <3 Taco

But Krissy= the best girlfriend ever<33333

We're all dumb and jaded

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 18:50:02 GMT

Work definitely sucks. Most of the people there are cool, with the exception of one bitch. Once I hit her in the head with a pizza box, it felt good. And recently if she's in my way I just bump into her to move her out of the way, but I act like it's an accident. Now they have me wearing an official Sals Pizza shirt, but they gave me a large as opposed to small. I swear to god I look absolutely disgusting with a large shirt on. I like shirts that fit just right, like a glove. I guess their goal is to bring my self esteem into the negatives. I have to go in at 4 today, so I still have like 2 and a half hours just to chill and whatnot. I have to go to target and get a pair of headphones cuz the ones I have right now suck. Plus I need them to listen to the TV at the gym I joined. Yea, I joined a gym by the way. And it has tanning in the gym too so my mom wants me to get my tanning done there for the cruise so I dont like walk out of my room and like die. Yesterday was the 1st day I went, it was with Krissy. With her and I, we brought so much business to that place. We were only there for about an hour and a half cuz my boss had let me out early so I called her and asked if she wanted to go to the gym. They close at 10 and have all state of the art shit. We just used the treadmill and these bicycle machines. The bicycles seemed like they took forever to burn calories, but the treadmills were pretty effective. And by the end of the night my shirt was like drenched with sweat and I had to borrow Krissy's Thomas Hooker shirt, I still have mine too haha Then we just watched TV for the rest of the night and I went home, just like any other night. I've had a pair of pants on my lap now for about 20 minutes, I have intentions of putting them on but I haven't for some reason...Anyway I have to pick up my sister from school then like 30 minutes later I have to pick up Krissy cuz she had to stay after school for some reason. Oh yea, yesterday I was summoned to help move stuff over at Krissy's, her mom said she needed help moving heavy stuff...it was just a bunch of books, nothing was really heavy. And while i was putting some rugs outside Krissy got home from school, and I was informed that Steph thought I looked buff and Krissy thought so too lol I wish but not too buff like those body builders,icky...and their penis' are like .0000000000001 inches big. I think Wednesday I'm goin out to eat with Carlos and Bucholz for one last time before Bucholz has to go back to college. I have no idea where we're goin this time but we always seem to have horrible service. I don't want to go to chilis since I go there alot and a gay waiter hit on me while I was on my 3rd month anniversary with Krissy. He wouldn't stop staring and smiling at me, at first I was like noooooo way, he's starin at Krissy. But I couldn't delude myself forever. Ugh, well that's over atleast. Well that's all I can think of for now, later

We Walk amonst you feeding and raping

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 01:30:40 GMT

It's my birthday buh buh buh buh birthday, the party was great but today sucks right now I had to work 3-8 on my birthday =( and now I'm doing absolutely nothing

You got me on my knees Layla

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 20:45:59 GMT

Wow it's been less than a month with me updating I must say thatr I'm proud of myself. Hmmmm whats there to say except oh man Kia Rio, what a cool car. I've only seen one other person on the road with a Kia Rio it's because people are like oh man it's a Kia Rio thats way too cool of a car for me so I'm in the very exclusive group of people that are cool enough to drive a Kia Rio. Anyway I went to the dermatologist a couple of days ago cuz my face is disgusting then again so it the rest of my body but not much I can do about that unless i get liposuction...and she put me on fuckin three prescriptions. I got some kind of cream to put on my face, some shit to rub on myself in the shower and now I'm poppin pills. I have a hard enough time swallowing pills as is but now I have to take them. Today I was waiting for Krissy in the car to bring her to walmart to get some photo paper and while i was waiting I looked in the mirror in the little thing that comes down to block the sunlight, and I was absolutely disgusted. I felt like I wanted to vomit all over the mirror. Then Krissy came and everything was fine again.
By now you should now that I'm completely unorthodox in how I write in this thing so dont expect things to be in order. Last night was mine and Krissy's 3rd month anniversary. We went to Chillis and I ate way too much I got country fried steak, it was real good but I couldnt finish it. Then we went to Hubbard Park to look at the Christmas lights, which sucked. A bunch of customers came into Sals and kept telling me that they did an amazing job with the lights, there was nothing special about them. So then we thought about what to do next and we rented a movie, The Day After Tomorrow. It was ok, nothing special once again. but naturally it was still a great time. I was like really tired cuz I got like no sleep from the night before cuz my friend was bein a complete asshole to her on the phone and I felt real bad. So I was like passing out throughout the night. Then I brought her home early cuz it had begun to snow and her mom said to bring her home if it started to snow...actually it was because my mom yelled at me to bring her home but it brought about the same result. I brought her home and I went inside for like 20 minutes maybe and my mom called me and told me to get my ass home because of the snow. Which was complete bullshit cuz I had minimal trouble getting home. Whatever, came home and went to sleep.
Then two nights ago I went to Hops with Carlos from work and my friend Bucholz and Krissy would not allow me to have sex with Carlos, I was very upset lol Hops was horrible. The waitress was nice though but other than that it sucked. The food was horrible and they didnt even have the kind of beer Carlos wanted. Then we were on our way home and Krissy called me and she was completely plastered. She seemed like she was having a good time, until Bucholz got the phone. I kept on telling him to shut up the whole time I dont know maybe I should have punched em. I still feel horrible that she had to go through that...yea It was a fun night minus that. We just talked about how much we hate work and the certain people there. We're going to make that a weekly thing now, but we have to find a restuarant in which to go every week. This Sunday we're gonna try Applebees, and we're gonna be celebrating Carlos's and Juan Carlos's Birthdays. Carlos is on the 27th and Juan's is the day afterwards! Thats so crazy, then mine is on New Years Day which is 5 days later. And I have to go to work soon then I'm goin over to Krissy's to watch the patriots vs the dolphins...I wonder who's gonna win. Oh well, tahtah

To love you is life

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 15:59:48 GMT

Well it's been over a month without updating so I figure why the hell not? My class just got cancelled so I coulda slept like an extra 3 hours! God damn philosophy professor, I'll give em somethin to philosophize over! yea, that was a good one B-) But anyways, I'm at Central right now(my college) and I'm basically bored out of my mind. I've been on this computer for about an hour now and my ass is numb. This is a way of relieving some of the boredom. No one is online except for Tommy and he stopped talking, what the fuck. My next class isnt until 12:30 now, why couldnt he just cancell as well. But I suppose I would have been even more mad if I went there to find out that it had been cancelled. Meaning I drove 30 minutes here for absolutely no reason at all. Do you like my new journal design *insert innocent angel face* oh yea? well you reek of rotten fish heads! yea once again I'm extremely bored. Whoa and I just spaced out staring at my hand cuz it has i love kristine braccidiferro written on it, only the truth.
So yea, Like once every week I go over Greg's house and play Halo 2, it's lots of fun but it would be much better if I didn't suck so much. Then again these guys own the game and play it a hell of alot more than I do so I guess it's just expected. Monday nights have become monday night football with Krissy and her mom. As a replacement to watching the Red Sox, we watch football instead =) Krissy usually just falls asleep or something but I dont care, it's time spent with her so it's always amazing. Plus the Vikings have started to win again, they won twice in a row! So now they definitely have a chanceat the playoffs. The Vikings being my favorite team of course must make it to the playoffs so I can have bragging rights. I dont really brag all that much, basically cuz I dont have anything to brag over. With the exception of my girlfriend.
Saturday night I went to Hooters with Bucholz and 2 people from work. One guy wanted to go but his wife wouldnt let him. It was so sad, when I asked him about it I thought he was gonna cry! But everyone asked their girlfriends if they could go and they all expected the worst that they couldnt go but then I go to mine and she wants to come with us lol she is just too great to describe. We were supposed to follow my co-worker Carlos so a car goes by and Bucholz yells at me that it isnt Carlos, so I pull into a driveway then another one goes by and I start to follow that one then I'm yelled at again cuz it's the wrong one again! Then finally I find the right one and we are one our way to Hooters. It was a great night, the food was surprisingly good and there was alot of laughs. One of the guys didnt really understand english all that much but he made fun of my car so I said heres something youll understand and flipped em off! lol we all laughed and that was the end of the night. they had 5 Heinekins and it came up to $16, thats crazy. Beer is just nasty to begin with, why would you pay so much for something so disgusting? Whatever floats your boat.
Sunday...I can't remember much of what happened...I worked then Krissy and I helped Dino move into his new place in Southington. It's alot better looking than his old apartment. I have to drive there again so I know how to get there by heart. Then we went back to my house and watched TV and whatnot until like 11:15 Last night work was slow and boring then I went to Krissys to watch the packers beat the hell out of the rams until 10:30 cuz I had to leave to go with my mom to pick up my brother from the airport, he had just gotten back from visiting his friend in Texas. He had a blast and wants to move down there someday. He wants me to go with em =/ I dont know about that happening, I'll go down there for like a visit but I wouldnt wanna live down there. There or New York, ugh. I like the thought of going to Seattle, thatd be nice. But I doubt I'm goin anywhere for a while, after college I'll prolly get a place somewhere close and eventually move out of here. Cuz I definitely do not want to stay here for the rest of my life...people here are so cold. I prolly said that before but I'm saying it again, cuz its so damn true. Krissy called me at about 11:30 and we talked til about 12:30 and she went to bed. And I was about to as well but then she called me again cuz she forgot to say I love you, it was so cute =) I went to bed then woke up at like 6:30 so I could call Krissy to make sure she wasnt sleeping so she went to school. Turns out she was in the shower ;) ooolala Went back to sleep and then all that shit above happened. Annnd I'm out of stuff to say once again so byebye

Crowded streets all cleared away one by one

Thu, 28 Oct 2004 23:25:22 GMT

Last night I watched the Red Sox win the world series with Krissy. I'm not much of a baseball fan, but I hate the Yankees. The fans are such sore losers and the players are a bunch of snobs. They are all bought and extremely pig headed. So I'm glad the Red Sox were able to be the only team to ever make such a come back and to beat the Yankees of all teams. Then to see them sweep in the series even though they hadnt won it since 1918. And Krissy is like a huge Red Sox fan so it was nice for her team to win it =) so I got to spend time with her which is all I can ask for really. And earlier in the day we traveled around looking for shoes for Krissy's halloween costume, which was a complete failure lol cuz all the places were closed by the time we got there. And it wasnt even 6:00 yet! But the night was great nonetheless. And I never realized how much I hate people in general here until yesterday. People are such assholes, but then again that's why I fit in. I really want to leave here once I get old enough.
Today I woke up and went to school and really didnt want to get out of bed. It sucked but I went anyways. Classes were boring, as usual but I went in the computer lab during my break in hopes to talk to some people online, like I do every Tuesday and Thursday from like 11:00-12:15. And there was like no one on, except for Tommy. so I talked to him for the time and made plans to hang out later that day. I get out of class and get Krissy to continue the search for her Halloween accessories and she got her shoes at Payless, but she says that they keep on falling off or something so we're gonna have to bring them back and get something else probably. Tommy calls up and says hell call back once he hangs out with Tony for a bit, but turns out Tony wanst home and Tommy was in trouble for using all his minutes on his phone or something. So turns out he couldnt hang out with me and Krissy. Now he said he'll give me a call tomorrow night after I get out of work and we can do something then. But anyway while I'm on the phone with Tommy i push against this metal bar thing and it fell on my fuckin head! It hit my temple, it really hurt...Krissy found it hilarious lol but i woulda done the same if it happened to someone else. I brought her home so she could do homework cuz she said she had like a whole shit load of it to do.
And now later tonight we're going to Chili's with me,Krissy, my sister, Sebastion, Beckie annnnd thats it I think. I'm gonna try the southwestern eggrolls cuz Krissy keeps on telling me theyre soooo good lol Then afterwards I think I'm supposed to go see a movie...I forgot the name of it...it has christmas in the title. But I'm not sure if thats gonna happen since I have like no money. and I dont have much ambition to see the movie anyway, since I have no idea what its about...hell I dont even know the name of the movie. Now I am done boring you, sorry for wasting your time

And I scream I still scream look at what you did to me, see what you did to me

Mon, 25 Oct 2004 17:47:54 GMT

I'm not even gonna update, just post a fuckin comment, anything you want...but I guess this counts as an update nonetheless, but still! Anything, absolutely anything it doesnt even have to relate to me I know your reading this so just post a comment lol is that so much to ask? I'm so tired of feeling like a loser with no comments

BTW I <3 Krissy

Theres a dagger in my heart bleedin me dry cuz I dont know if I'm alive or dead

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 21:30:04 GMT

Monday night I slept over Krissys house to celebrate our one month anniversary and we watched the Red Sox win their 1st game against the Yankees. then yesterday we went our to the movies and saw Team America World Police which was an alright movie. It was funnier than I thought it was gonna be but then again I went in there with low expectations, but Baseketball was much better =P Al I remember is that there are 3 types of people in this world, dicks pussies and assholes and even though the dicks fuck the pussies and the assholes you have to let the dicks do their job or else the assholes are gonna shit all over everyone. I dont know, it was something to that effect though lol. And then we watched the other two ball games where the Sox won both! And today I took an exam in communications class and I dont think I did too well on it... but I'll just have to wait and see Tonight I'm hopin to go over to watch the last game with Krissy. And I'm gonna try and do this survey again without the computer shutting down on me again, fuckin thing. I'm like obsessed with these surveys.

1. have you ever had a song written about you? nope, only written them for others =(
2. what song makes you cry? 4 a.m. by Our Lady Peace
3. what song makes you happy? Echo by Trapt
4. what do you like to listen to before you go to bed? New Chevelle Mmmmmm
5. height: 5'4
6. hair color: red ugh but soon to be black
7. skin color: white, like pale white haha
8. eye color: hazil and like a ring of gold around my pupils
9. piercings: none yet
10. tattoos: celtic sun with inscription "I'd burn our initials in the sun if it would shine" between my shoulder blades
11. what color pants are you wearing? black naturally
12. what song are you listening to? I'm in silence now but nowwww...One More Day to Regret by Mushroomhead
13. what taste is in your mouth? cinnamon gum
14. what's the weather like? chilly willy
15. how are you? bored/weird
16. get motion sickness? no
17. have a bad habit? who doesnt
18. get along with your parents? mhmmm

FAVORITES:
19. tv show: Family Guy
20. conditioner: dont use conditioner
21. book: dont have one really
22. non-alcoholic drink: any kind of fruit juice basically
23. alcoholic drink: jagermeister
24. things to do on the weekend: work mainly and hang out with Krissy =)
HAVE YOU:
25. broken the law: yea, and I got 3 fuckin tickets for it
26. ran away from home: nope
27. snuck out of the house: yep
28. gone skinny dipping: nope, ugh
29. made a prank phone call: lol, yes those were good times
30. ever tipped over a porta potty: nope, noe I want to
31. used your parents credit card before: yes
32. skipped school before: yes
33. fell asleep in the shower/bath? almost
34. been in a school play: nope

LOVE:
35. girlfriend/boyfriend: yep
36. sexuality: straight
37. children: not now, dont need to ruin my life
38. current crush: nope
39. been in love: currently am
40. had a hard time getting over someone: yes
41. been hurt: no I'm invincible, of course I have
42. your greatest regret: just a bunch of little ones
43. gone out with someone you only knew for three days: nope

RANDOM:
44. do you have a job? yeah.
45. your cd player has in it right now: Mudvayne
46. if you were a crayon what color would you be? black
47. what makes you happy: Krissy...friends...music...and football
48. the last time you got a real letter: yesterday =)
49. the last tv program you watched: red sox game

now comment with these on mine!

x = yes
o = no
~ = maybe, depends

would you ever...[im just curious as to what the answers would be, so dont get ne ideas lol cuz I'm happily with Krissy =)]

() go out with me?
() give me your number?
() let me kiss you?
() have sex with me?
() watch a movie with me... even a really sappy one?
() take me out to dinner?
() drive me somewhere/anywhere?
() take a shower with me?
() be my bf/gf?
() have a fling with me?
() listen to me if I called you, crying, even if you were out with all of your friends?
() buy me a drink if I didn't have money?
() take me home for the night?
() let me sleep in your bed?
() sing car karaoke with me?
() sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
() re-post this for me to answer your questions?
() give me a piggyback ride?
() come & pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?

Bang bang he shot me down bang bang i hit the ground bang bang

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 23:17:21 GMT

Just been hangin out. I just saw collateral with Tom Cruise it was an awesome movie and me and Dino listened to Atreyu and Rammstein on the way. Now I feel really dizzy and I havent even drank anything and right now my sister is crying on the phone again. She talks to her bf 24/7 she really needs to get a life. And she cries everytime shes on the phone with him its really pathetic. I'm really just updating for the sake of updating. I dont have anything interesting or funny to say I'm just bored and bored oh yea and also bored. And now my friend Nick wants to hang out later tonight so that sounds like a plan.
Oh man! I get my tattoo tomorrow, its gonna be soooo cool and youre all gonna be jealous I know it. For those of you that don't know what I'm gettin Ill tell ya. I'm gettin a celtic sun its gonna have black rays and then a red center then underneath it I'm gonna have "I'd burn our initials in the sun if it would shine" written in cursive. Then on my wedding day I'll put mine and my wife's initials in the sun...signifying that the sun is shining and everything is just peachy. Everyone is asking me if I'm afraid or nervous thats such a stupid question. I'm so psyched I've been waiting for this for the longest time now. Then my boss asked me if I could work tomorrow from 4-9 and I was like bitch! I have a tattoo appointment...he thought I was joking but I was serious! Oh fuck I still gotta shave...I'll do that now bye
...But 1st Ask me three questions, no more and no less. Ask me anything you want, even if it's extremely personal. I DON'T CARE. It's part of the fun. Just bear in mind that I may come round and ask you questions back.

I must be running out of luck cuz you're just not drunk enough to fuck

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 04:28:26 GMT

Who cares what has happened in the past couple of days, if it was important you would have already heard about it from me or I woulda written already. But tonight I went to Grover Dill, Funeral For a Friend, Senses Fail, and My Chemical Romance. I was goin in there with the lowest of expectations, especially from Grover Dill. Grover Dill wasn't half bad, I thought they did a good job. But I didnt really get into senses fail of funeral for a friend...i dont know why not but I didnt. I find concerts alot better when you actually know the songs that the band is playing haha the only band I knew there really was My Chemical Romance They were absolutely amazing. For them I kinda went looking for my friends and ended up losing everyone so I was by myself for the performance. Oh well I still had a good time for the time being. Plus if I happened to do something stupid or something embarassing happened no one would be there to bust my balls about it. Even though I did fall down in the mosh pit haha. Right after the show was over it was so cool, everytime I talked it sounded like I had inhaled a shit load of helium. And everyone else sounded the same. And right now my hearing is pretty shitty so I cant hear much. That's all, byebye

You're happy you're in love...you need someone to hate

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 16:15:43 GMT

I've often found that quote above to be very true. My brother for instance, he was in love with that bitch of a woman Amy and for the longest time him and his best friend like almost hated each other it was kinda sad. And now I find myself doubting most of my friends which is also kinda sad. Our Lady Peace is so amazing, everyone should know about them and listen to them. Everyone I've come across and told about Our Lady Peace loves them. Their lyrics are so deep and Raine Maida's vocals just are simply amazing. I really think that everyone should go out and buy Happiness is not a fish that you can catch. It is their best album and just look at the lyrics, their so fucking awesome. You'll just be in awe, and realize everything he says is right, their music almost always cheers me up. It is the 1st thing I listen to in a bad mood, always.
As for what I've been doin nothing special. Went swimming yesterday with krissy and jocey and just kinda hung out. I got drunk later that night and played duckpin bowling, i still beat everyone even tho i was the only one under the influence and i only got like a 101. I watched clockwork orange with Krissy the other night the movie was awesome but Krissy has to leave like 10 minutes b4 it ended =( Krissy had a surprise for me the other day and I was so psyched to see what it was then when i finally got to see her she had cut her hair finally. She had her cool emo hair, and she looked really good. And it seems as each and every day goes by she only looks better with time. And I came upon this thingy in Karly's LJ and I stole it again lol she always finds cool stuff.

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	mysterious
Your hugs are...	friendly
Your eyes...	twinkle in the moonlight
Your touch is...	the only thing I desire
Your smell is...	exotic
Your smile is...	encouraging
Your love is...	one of a kind

Quiz created with MemeGen!

I have this smile to hide me

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 22:23:01 GMT

Ummmm I cant really remember much of what has happened since the last entry. I remember yesterday I went to work from 11-4 and that wasnt that bad actually. The boss is never there on Sunday and I dont feel so paranoid. It's just me Carlos and Sergio and Carlos is a cool guy and Sergio would be too if he spoke more english, hes kinda creepy though haha He kinda watches you sometimes and he makes some really weird lookin faces. Then I got out and went over Dino's for a bit. We played Soul Calibur II and I kicked his ass 3/4 rounds as Nightmare, psh I'm so cool Its always really fuckin hot inside his house I was sweatin so much, it was disgusting oh and Krissy I know how much you love my run on sentences so I'll put them in as much as I can, as a matter a fact I'm not putting in anymore periods we-eh-eh But anyway I left there around like 7:30 and got Krissy and then visited Tony cuz he had just gotten back from visiting his parents in Alabama Tony told me a fucked up story about him and his dad, that kid is fuckin crazy Anyway we went there and just hung out, didnt really do anything special, just kinda talked Then his friend Anthony...same name and the kid looks just like him only except taller and a little chubbier I took a hint that they wanted us to leave so they could get baked so we left and went to Krissy's house and watched Ferris Buellers Day Off, I never watched it before Krissy like freaked out when I told her I never saw it before haha but it was an awesome movie Then when I woke up this morning I had no idea if I had to work today or not so I went into Sals and asked if I had to work and I did, darn so I worked my 3 hours then went home and gave Nick a call His key to his car was fucked up so he couldnt go anywhere So instead I gave Dino a call and then I went over his house of course my dad had to drop me off cuz he needed to use my car AGAIN So I stayed there and I had to leave whenever my brother left cuz he was the only one with a car so I did. I was only there for like an hour or so but like 10 minutes after I got there Nick called me and told me he got another key to his car I was so pissed but we'll prolly just hang out tomorrow Now I'm home thinkin I should write a song but I'm not in the mood really. Besides my brother doesnt want me in his band anymore so theres no point really Now all i have is Tommy lol He wants me to sing for his band I dont know why in the world hed want that since my voice sounds like shit but he said it sounded good so w/e I like to sing but I'm always being told it sounds bad except Krissy but shes prolly just being nice and now Tommy thinks it sounds good so I dont know, maybe if hes actually serious I'll go along with it.
LAST PERSON WHO
. Slept in your bed: me
. Saw you cry: my mom
. Made you cry: Julie
. You shared a drink with: my brother
. You went to the movies with: Dino, Zianna
. You went to the mall with: cant remember
. Yelled at you: my boss
. Sent you an email: i dont check that thing
HAVE YOU EVER...
. Said "I Love You" and meant it: of course
. Gotten in a fight with your pet: yea but I still love em
. Danced naked: lol, mhmm
. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: not really
. Wish you were the opposite sex: lol, no
. Had an imaginary friend: dont remember em if i did
. Do you have a crush on someone: not really
. What book are you reading now: Drivers manual to my car
. Worst feeling in the world: heart break
. Future daugter's name: Aeris
. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no, just Taco
. What's under your bed: the floor
. Favorite sport to watch: football
. Siblings: kevin and lyndsi
. Location: Meriden
. College plans: Major in computer science as of now
. Piercings/tattoos: tattoo on the 5th!

...BEEN TO
. California: no
. Hawaii: no
. Mexico: no
. China: no
. Canada: no
wow I'm a loser

EXTRA STUFF
. Do you do drugs: nope
. Do you drink: occasionaly.
. Who is your best friend: Steve and Krissy
. What are you most scared of: Bees damn things
. What clothes do you sleep in: boxers
. Where do you want to get married: makes no difference to me
. Who do you really hate: fake ppl
. Do you drive: yep
. Do you have a job: yeah
. Do you like being around people: most of the time
. Are you for world peace: sure why not
. Are you a health freak: far from it

STUFF
. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: No
. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: yes
. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: not especially
. Are you lonely right now: nope, I'm content
. Song thats stuck in your head a lot: I wont see you tonight A7X<3
. Do you want to get married: naturally
. Do you want kids: just one

FAVORITE
. Room in house: my room
. Type(s) of music: metal, alternative, emo
. Band(s): favorite: our lady peace
. Color: black and orange go halloween!
. Perfume or cologne: cologne...i think itd be a little weird for me to wear perfume
. Month: January, my birthday month
. Stone: Ruby

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
. Cried: no
. Bought something: yep, a clockwork orange
. Gotten sick: yea, ugh
. Sang: most definitely
. Said "I love you": yes
. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: I just told her lol
. Met someone new: ummm maybe? they didnt leave much of an impression if i did
. Missed someone: no
. Hugged someone: yes
. Kissed someone: yes

Sign says yoga class for cats

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 16:44:44 GMT

I went to Six Flags on Thursday with Krissy, my brother, my sister and her boyfriend. I had a great time, and it seemed like everyone else did except for my brother. He was just complainin that he didnt feel well which is just a coverup cuz he feels like shit about the whole break up and shit. Fuck, he should be happy that that bitch is out of his life now. the kid on the other hand tho, thats the only thing to have feelings toward. I can move on either way but I really dont think the kid should stay with that cuntwhore(Krissy's word). but I cant make his decisions and he'll just have to decide on his own and I just hope he makes the right decision for him and the kid. But anyway, Six Flags was amazing. We went on Superman twice that ride was fuckin awesome and we tried to find Six Flag's version of the rotor but there wasnt one so that was a disappointment. The lines were nowhere near as bad as I thought they would be, it was just waiting in line for that water ride, it was brutal. and there was this guy in line with his shirt off and he had hair all over his body and I pointed it out to Krissy since she loves that kinda stuff so much and she got mad! lol Then in the same line Krissy had her hand on the bar and some guy lifted his ass up and slid it across her hand haha it was so smooth but so perverted. The ride got us all like soaked and I was pretty much wet for the rest of the day...shut up lol My brother kept on dropping heavy hints of wanting to leave so we left around 8:30 right after we went on the ferris wheel the sky looked amazing.
We drove home and then Krissy was hungry so I brought her to BK and we got somethin to eat and went to the park and ate it. Afterwards I brought her home and so ended the night.
Yesterday was pretty much boring, since I woke up at 1 and I dont like waking up that late. I sat at my computer for about 2 hours and talked to people then i got ready for work and then youll never guess what i did, yep I went to work. So then I went to work until 9 and came home for about an hour and then Krissy came online as her mom's sn and asked me to come over so I did. I had a good time there until I had to leave at like 2. And of course since I slept until like 2 I was tired when I got home and fell asleep like an hour later.
As of now I'm sitting here in my boxers delaying taking a shower and getting ready for work as much as possible blah I have to stay until 10 on Saturday nights from now on instead of 8. And as i stare down at my huge stomach cuz I'm fat I realize I really need to shave lol My brother calls me a faggot cuz I shave my chest and paint my nails occasionally I dont care I dont like chest hair ugh and I like the way I look with my nails painted black and people wonders why I turned out the way I did fuckin idiots, always gettin insulted whether it be by my family or friends or just random people. Oh well it's gotten to the point where words mean nothing and I've become immune to like anything anyone says...it shouldn't have to be that way though...oh well bye

Darkened eyes you'll see there is no hope no savior in me

Mon, 19 Jul 2004 18:56:52 GMT

Same old boring bullshit happenin, no point in updatin really I'm just bored. I've been gettin alot more hours in at Sals and now it seems like I'm never gonna have a day off. It's cool but that means it's gonna take forever to go to six flags with Krissy. and now my mom has invited my sister and he bf, Sebastian so now theyre going too and my brother might be goin too itll still be fun...just not as fun. I bought the Butterfly Effect that is such a good movie! My tattoo is being scheduled for the 1st week of August so Krissy better have her lip and hair done for then too! haha Today I got out of work early which was awesome I thought i was gonna be there until 4 but then at like 2 my boss said you can go and I was like what!? and he said you can go so i did and I was such a happy little school boy haha I got my car tax today I was all freaked out about that. I was like when did they start taxing you for having a car!? What a stupid fuckin tax, now I owe $305 for car tax, bullshit! And thats on top of my credit card and cell phone bill but I'll have enough cash to pay for it, but it still sucks. And I was goin through random people's LJ's and I saw Tommy had a survey thingy that i haven't done yet so I stole it...even though it was from like 3 months ago haha
survey cause im bored

+ name:Kyle
+ nickname:The Duke B-)
+ sex: male
+ birthdate: 1-1-86
+ star sign: capricorn
+ place of birth: Meriden
+ hair colour: Red
+ eye colour: Hazel
+ height: 5'4
+ writing hand: right

BODY iLLS + SKiLLS
+ do you bite your nails: no + can you roll your tongue: yes
+ can you raise one eyebrow at a time: yes
+ can you blow smoke rings: prolly not
+ can you blow spit bubbles: no
+ can you cross your eyes: yep
+ coloured hair: did it once and goin to again
+ tattoos and where: Soon to get one in center of my back
+ piercings and where: none + do you make your bed daily: no
+ which shoe goes on first: right
+ how much money is usually in your wallet: about $30
+ what jewelery do you wear 24/7: none anymore...but usually necklace
+ do you twirl your sphagetti or cut it: twirl
+ how many cereals are in your cabinet:3
+ what utensils do you use when eating pizza: hands, fork and knife
GROOMiNG

+ do you paint your nails: yes
+ do you swear: of course
+ do you mumble to yourself: all the time
+ in the cd player: Our Lady Peace
+ person you talk most on the phone with: dont talk on the phone really
+ what colour is your bedroom: Green
+ do you use an alarm clock: when i have to
+ have you ever skinnydipped with the opposite sex: not yet lol
+ ever sunbathed in the nude: ugh, never unless I was drunk
+ window seat or aisle: window

+ what's your sleeping position: back.
+ in hot weather do you use a blanket: yeah
+ do you snore: dont think so + do you sleepwalk: nope
+ do you talk in your sleep: sometimes
+ lights on or off: off
+ do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on: neither

WHEN WAS THE LAST TiME YOU
+ were kissed or kissed someone: last night
+ cried: may 22nd 2004 when Julie dumped me
+ talked on the phone: ummmm I couldnt tell ya
+ read a book: Coocoo's Next for English class
+ where do you see yourself ten years from now: not sure anymore+ how many kids do you want to have: 1...preferably a boy
FRIENDS
+ who is your best friend: Steve
+ what friend do you hang out with the most: Steve, Jake and Krissy
+ what friend makes you smile the most: Krissy and Steve
+ friend that you fight with the most: None, I'm easy to get along with
+ one you talk to the most online: Krissy
+ friend that you miss the most: idk, dont really miss any of em

DO YOU LIKE
+ pop music: not really
+ rock music: yes + 'punk' music: some of it
+ rap music: fuck no + country music: hell no
+ r&b music: ugh...
+ jazz music: most
+ classical music: naturally

LoVe
+ grilfriend: lol kinda?
+ ever been in love: Twice, currently am

...They feast on the bounty which I've sacrificed for you

Thu, 15 Jul 2004 02:21:04 GMT

Today...hard to say really. I woke up at like 7 in the morning to my mom going through my wallet for money. Then I went back to sleep for about another 3 hours until my phone went off and I had to wake up for work at 11. Went to work from 11-4 and my boss is back so now it sucks again. I never realized how petrified I am of him until today. Or annoyed, its hard to distinguish. But I left there at 4, came home then brought my mom to pick up her truck at Ford so now I can drive my car when and where I want again. Couple minutes pass and I get an IM from Krissy and gives me the worst possible news I could have gotten at that time. she tells me that we can't go to Six Flags tomorrow. I wasn't into the idea all that much but then it grew on me and I was really excited to go but now that's been crushed and no six flags tomorrow... I had to watch my brothers kid until about 6 cuz he couldnt find ne1 else once that was over i got a call from heather to come hang out with her greg and liz. So I called em up and told em Steve and Jake were coming too. I got them and we all met up at Carvel. Heather was set on going to Mcdonalds for food so we went there and ate...well heather greg and liz did. I wasnt hungry neither was Jake and steve had no money. then we came back to my house and Greg played Soul Calibur and we all watched as he beat the game even though I think he had no idea what the fuck he was doin. Then they left and I brought steve and Jake home and now here I sit by myself alone again while everyone else is out with someone. Earlier today I asked Krissy if it was a possibility for me to stay over for the night and she told me it might happen and her mom might say yes but I never got that answer so now she's out somewhere with Ashley lighting candles or something like that...I dont know... Right now I'm contemplating getting drunk but something is stopping me from doing so, just the glimmer of hope that...nevermind I wrote two more songs and I'm just gonna post one of em even though none of you care really...here it is:
Uncertainty

I wish to spend eternity in arms
Could you wish the same?
Won’t you take my hand forever?
Secure all of you that alarms
Do away of all the pain
The head waiting to be severed
Turn your back in shame
My chin faces the ground
Envious of those buried beneath
It’s my appearance to be blamed
It’s these limitations to which I’m bound
I fall to taste the dirt between my teeth

Uncertainty is taking its toll
Clipped my wings now I fall
Uncertainty has taken its toll
Impact of reality as I hit the wall

I reach out to fill the void
Your cold shadow is received
Rejection spits in my wretched face
It was me you were trying to avoid
Your anguish never could be relieved
Oblivion is arriving within my base
Celebrations I am your nothing
Salutations I am your aggravation
Revelations I’m your fucking despair
This endless discontent is nothing
It only combines with all my frustrations
Take this time and let me repair

Uncertainty is taking its toll
Clipped my wings now I fall
Uncertainty has taken its toll
Impact of reality as I hit the wall

Crash! Hit the wall!
Let this be a comparison!
To what you’ve done to me!
(Repeat)

...Envious of those buried beneath

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 02:33:26 GMT

Well yet again it seems like nothing exciting has happened in the oh so boring life of Kyle Green. The latest I can remember is Sunday night really when I went over and hung out with Krissy. She came over and we watched Secret Window and came to the conclusion that Johnny Depp is the sexiest man ever. Then we got a call from Krissy's mom askin us to come home early cuz Tommy had come over so we finished watching the movie and went back to her house. The minute the door opened Tommy got up from the couch and ran and jumped in my arms. He is the lightest kid ever and I feel really bad if he ever gets into a fight since hell prolly end up dying. So we just talked for a little bit and Krissy's mom took away my knife cuz she prolly thinks ill go crazy and slit everyone's throats or somethin. But then we went in Krissy's room and watched some Freddy movie and once that was over Tommy left at around 2 a.m. then we just layed there and watched TV for like an hour then we made an attempt to fall asleep...that failed miserably. We were in that room until 2 in the afternoon and she only got 5 hours of sleep and I only got one.
So then my friend Nick gives me a call and I meet him at BK.We give Andy a call and we pick him up. Then we went to see Steve Nichols, fuckin heartproblem had to work so we didnt hang out with him. So then we go visit Stevie(Ahern) and he's in the sack with Dani. So we just mess around at his house for a bit then Andy strips down to his boxers and jumps in bed with Dani and Steve who are both naked under the sheets...and he ended up sitting in Steve juice haha Then we went to the mall and just hung around there with some racist kids. Then we all went home around 5 and the rest of that is a blur...oh yea I got a little tipsy so that was fun. Now I've been havin to get up at 11 in the morning to go to work, which blows. I've been tired soooo much. I almost fell asleep at work today. Also some guy drove into our powerlines so now Sals prolly wont have power for a day or two. Maybe I'll get called out of work tomorrow, one can only hope... Right now I just got back from Krissy's where she had some kind of family reunion thingy, she sat like on the other side of the room so I felt like an outcast and she kept on tellin I should leave...so yea I'm just gonna sit here now and write some lyrics and give you this quiz thingy to fill out which I stole from Krissy's LJ...have a blast
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?

Purify your soul watch the innocence fall from your eyes...

Fri, 09 Jul 2004 17:16:38 GMT

I havent updated in a while. I just havent gotten around to doing so...sorry. But anyway I've been in and out like all the time just hanging out with different people. Krissy, Steve, Jake, and Greg. I hadn't seen Greg in a while so that was cool. I only think he came though cuz Heather prolly made em since I kinda was in a shitty mood one night and told her I wanted things to go back to normal so I'm assuming she told Greg and he IMed me later that night...I felt so pathetic.I guess it's only suiting since that's me. I'm not putting any of this shit into paragraphs today, it'll take too much effort since Ill have like no transition whatsoever. But anyways I've been writing songs more often than I usually have I finished one I started a while ago and then after that one I started another one. I finished the first verse of that one then the mood just went away so I'll finish that another time. And as of now I started to write another one, my subject title is the opening words to it. Basically it's saying that tears are a representation of all that is innocent and blood is a representation of all that is guilty, but that's later on in the song. And as a twist I threw in some of my hatred for my brother's girlfriend, Amy. That song I posted before which only one person commented on...Krissy..thanks to her...now it seems no one else really gives a shit but oh well atleast I know this. I have written two songs that I actually like the rest are ok. That is one of the songs I actually like. I really wish I could write songs like Raine Maida of Our Lady Peace(new icon thanks to luna_puella) all his songs are just so deep and his voice...omg haha He is seriously my idol and my inspiration for writing. I'm so sad that their new CD got pushed back until October...first it was Disturbed now it's Our Lady Peace...motherfucker. But anyway once I receive more comments from my posts then maybe I'll post some more of my writing and I'd update more often but I don't see the reason in taking the time to do this if no one is gonna read it, know what I mean..(as I talk to nobody) It kinda gets me sad, but oh well. Plus I've realized that I've written alot of love songs I think they'd be like emo...this can not be true on account I'm hardcore goth haha I must write about hatred and killing people not this mushy love stuff even though that's what comes to me easiest and it always comes out the best. Today I'm supposed to go see Anchorman with Steve and Jake but I dont know if thats gonna happen. I'm low on cash as is and I'm supposed to go to Six Flags on Thursday with Krissy and I have a car to pay for and credit card and phone bill and all this other shit...I don't know if I can afford it...Plus I had my hopes set on seein Krissy today before she left for some family extravaganza of some kind haha. And I've come to the conclusion that her mom hates me even though she says she doesn't but oh well. Another name to add to the list...haha I almost put ass to the list...oh god I'm too easily amused but I get bored so easily...weird

My heart screams for you

Sun, 04 Jul 2004 05:16:29 GMT

I've been in NJ for the past couple of days. It was a fun time overall. I got burned really bad on my face and back of my neck but I think I'm actually getting color in my skin so I'm not so white. I'd have to say the best time was getting drunk at night and then talking to Krissy while i was piss drunk, everyone said I was but I didnt feel like I was that drunk. I only had 8 shots, thats not much. The car ride to and back sucked so much! We also went to medievil times, that was pretty boring. I think thats something you can only have fun at if you're either drunk or high. Oh well, next time.
Today I went into work at 4 and i thought i was getting out at 8 like any other Saturday but my boss went to Mexico so I had to stay til 10. Some really hot girl came in today and Carlos bet me $5 I wouldnt ask her for her unmber, so I did. she turned me down of course, but I dont care haha I got to leave 15 minutes early cuz Carlos is cool like that and he let me leave. So I got home talked online for about 15 minutes and went over and got Krissy, she said she wanted to see me :) It's always a good feeling to know someone is happy to see you. But anyway I gave her A Bobbie's world DVD I found in NJ and a Finch shirt. We then watched Bobbie's World and I was reminded how great that show was. So it was a really good night cuz work was actually fun and cuz of Krissy.
Right now I'm really hungry and I'm gonna go look for some food cuz I havent eaten since i woke up and I'm fat.
Also I was feeling creative so I wrote a song today for someone,leave comments...
Crimson Passion

I long to speak to you deep inside of my head
You float by me in your absolute grace
Misleading me with all the things you’ve said
Nothingness has been cherished and embraced
Right beside me as my heart screams for you
It bleeds, cries, then dies in this anticipation
I’ve crawled out of this black hole, how I wish that to be true
To tell you these words would grant instant rejuvenation

I want to scream until my lungs collapse
Relieve this pain which has subdued for an eternity
From inside my chest burst the words I love you

Brought to my knees my endurance has run thin
Head to the ground I’m gasping for breath
My loyalty and love are now yours at your every whim
Awaiting the wrong response along with death
Your body shimmers and I tremble at your feet
Watch as the sweet sound of your voice caresses my ear
Hopes are high yet there are expectations of defeat
My doubts confirmed I’ve faced my fear

I have screamed until my lungs collapsed
This pain has died these tears have lied
Our hearts meet in mutuality and say the words
I love you

Disbelief and reality collide at alarming speeds
A person of your caliber loving me leaves traces of skepticism
You leaned over and kissed me killing any false leads
As the taste lingers no longer will I feel this autism
This feeling of ecstasy leaves with the end of your kiss
Hungering, craving, wanting more of your love
You vanish without a trace leaving me in this abyss
Come crashing down after flying like a dove

Screaming is in the past now the truth is unveiled
Shame, guilt, and fear have all been incinerated
In the crimson passion which I hold for you

When you finally trust me finally believe in me I will let you down...

Sun, 27 Jun 2004 00:49:25 GMT

Yesterday I remember nothing of the day on account the night was just so awesome. I got home from work and had plans of doing something with Krissy. So I called her up and she sounded like she was dying, turns out that she had just woke up. haha I was hesitant of picking her up to do something but she said she wanted to. So I got over there, not knowing she felt like she wanted to vomit(must have been the thought of hanging out with me haha) and we left. she seemed a little confused at first cuz I was in my dads car on account I couldnt drive my mustang anywhere cuz I didnt wanna put anymore miles on it. Anyway, she gets in the car and we go to Tommy K's.
Inside Tommy K's we walk up and down the aisle of each and every movie atleast 3 times, since we both can't agree on a movie. I should have just said I never saw Stuck On You, we woulda been out of there alot quicker lol Anyway after yelling at eachother to pick a movie, I call my mom and tell her to pick a movie. She ended up saying Along Came Polly. There was no argument with that and we ended up getting that. Then we got back into the Galant and went back to my house to watch it. It was an okay movie, but it just ended up being an awesome night. Then we kinda just channel surfed for a little bit until she had to go home at 12. I brought her back to her house, gave her a hug then came back home again. To end the night I just talked online with a bunch of people for about 2 in the morning.
That was a mistake since I had to wake up again at 6 for the paper route, blah I've been tired all day. So I do the paper route(we were short like 24 fuckin papers so that pissed me off) and then i try to go back to sleep for about an hour but that didn't go over too well. It seems whenever I know I have to wake up by a certain time I can't go back to sleep, it's like a curse. But at 9:30 I went to Barberino in Wallingford and I got my new car! I had to trade in the Mustang though, I'm gonna miss that car :( so many memories in that car like my first kiss :) but now I have a black kia rio, it's kinda cute haha Atleast the AC works in this one, and it has a CD player and that's a MUST.
At 2 I went to the mall with steve for our date ;) We played Warcraft. I've always loved starcraft but I never played it on the computer. Ultimately, Steve would have kicked my ass probably but I never know cuz my fuckin time ran out at digital mayhem! I think I had a pretty good chance =/ haha Then it was 3:30 and i almost forgot i had to go to work, so I rushed out of there, put on some Tool :) and went home got ready and went to work.
I've been having like shooting pains in my side all day and it's really starting to piss me off. They seemed to go away at work for some reason, work was really slow and boring. And now I sit here on my Saturday night doing nothing except updating my livejournal...god im a loser.

I will sew the hole you left inside me leaving you in the past

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 17:07:08 GMT

Last night me steve and krissy went to the movies and saw chronicals of riddick. Krissy hated it, I thought it was pretty good, and it goes without saying that steve loved it on account it had Vin Diesel. He had to turn down his Vin Diesel meter so he didn't pass out from orgasming so much. Afterwards we went to Krissy's house and kinda just hung around and steve got yelled at by Krissy's mom cuz steve thought she didnt like him...I dont know i guess you had to be there. Krissy was really quiet the whole time =/ Then when she got inside and watched Conan she was all right. That Conan is a funny funny man, I wish I was funny, sexy, and cool like him. And that hair...ugh omg its so amazing.
haha Well today I went to the doctor's and got a tuburculosis(however you spell it) shot so now i have this little bump in my arm that looks like a bug bite, blah. And tonight I'm supposed to watch Bad Santa with Krissy and my mom wanted to go car shopping but I said no way bitch haha, not really but I told her I already had plans and we're just gonna go tomorrow now. Here's a quiz you can take if you get bored, like I did...bye
http://www.quizilla.com/users/imasurvivor2005/quizzes/What%20is%20your%20social%20status%3F

My results:You're Anti-social! Even though you spend hours on the computer and don't like having to deal with real people, you are a pretty interesting character. Only problem is... hardly anyone knows you exsist because you're always on your computer!
^psh, that's bullshit...plenty of people know i exist...delusion one of my few friends

Great balls of fire

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 20:42:40 GMT

Your full name:: Kyle Raymond Green (no you shut up)
Age:: 18
Height:: 5'4 or something
Natural hair colour:: Red
Eye colour:: Hazel
Number of siblings:: 2
Glasses/contacts?:: neither
Piercings:: none
Tattoos:: Gettin one soon and more in the future
Braces?:: Nope...
FAVOURITE
Colour:: black
Band:: Our Lady Peace
Song:: "Sell My Soul" by Our Lady Peace
Stuffed animal:: Don't have any...sorry
Video game:: Diablo
TV show:: Simpsons/Family Guy
Movie:: The Crow
Book:: One Flew Over the Coocoo's Nest
Food:: BBQ Ribs
Game on a cell phone:: Bowling
CD cover:: Disturbed Believe
Flower:: Black Roses
Scent:: Oranges
Animal:: Taco haha
Comic book:: Spiderman?
Cereal:: Honey Bunches of Oats
Website:: not sure...
Cartoon:: Family Guy/simpsons...
DO YOU
Play an instrument?:: Drums and bass
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: No, I'm not that big of a loser...or so i like to think
Like to sing?:: Yes,even though I suck at it.
Have a job?:: yes
Have a cell phone?:: Yep, i need a new one though
Like to play sports?:: Baseball, Football
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: No, what's it to you ;) haha wish i did
Have a crush on someone?:: Yup
Live somewhere NOT in the United States?:: Nope.
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: No, 5 exactly
Have any special talents/skills?:: Nope, dont think so :(
Excercise daily?:: I try to
Like school?:: Not at all
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: ha, yea right
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: yes,not like in titanic though,that was crazy shit...i agree with you haha
Speak any other languages?:: German
Go a day without food?:: Been there, done that
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: Must I repeat myself?
Read music, not just tabs?:: No
Roll your tongue?:: Yep
Eat a whole pizza?:: No, I'm fat enough as is
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: Yes
Cried to get out of trouble?:: No, not worth my tears
Gotten lost in your city?:: Countless times on the road
Seen a shooting star?:: Not as many as Krissy haha
Been to any other countries besides the United States?:: Nope
Had a serious surgery?:: No
Stolen something important to someone else?:: No, someone stole something of mine...my heart ;) hahaha
Solved a rubiks cube?:: No
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: Mhmmm
Cried over a girl?:: Fairly recently
Cried over a boy?:: No.
Kissed a random stranger?:: No
Hugged a random stranger?:: Yes
Been in a fist fight?:: Nah, I have my way with words :)
Been arrested?:: Nope
Done drugs?:: Nope
Had alcohol?:: Yes.
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: Yes!
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: No
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: No,I'd feel like a dumbass if i did,though.
Swore at your parents?:: Yeah all the time
Been to warped tour?:: Not yet
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: No, thats wrong
Been in love?:: Yea, and fallin out of it is a bitch
Been close to love?:: I just said i was in love!
Been to a casino?:: Yes
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: I hit a bird once.
Broken a bone?:: Nope.
Gotten stitches?:: Nope.
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: No
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: Dont even like milk that much
Made homemade muffins?:: Nope.
Bitten someone?:: Yes, haha
Been to Disneyland/Disneyworld?:: Probabaly, cant remember though
More than 5 times?:: No
Been to Niagra Falls?:: no
Burped in someones face?:: Yes, i dont do that nemore...kinda gross
Gotten the chicken pox?:: Yea, or so im told
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: this morning
Went to the bathroom:: when i took a shower...about 3 hours ago
Saw a movie in theaters::Garfield.It sucked...yea it did
Read a book:: In school
Had a snow day:: Few months ago.
Had a party:: For me? the 17th, at a friend's: Saturday night
Had a slumber party:: idk, when me and krissy watched lord of the g strings
Made fun of someone:: I lose track
Tripped in front of someone:: ya got me
Went to the grocery store:: when i brought krissy to get dog food
Got sick:: dont remember
Cursed:: like a minute ago
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables:: fruit haha
Black/white:: black
Lights on/lights off:: Lights off.
TV/movie:: Movie... no commercials.
Car/truck:: Car.
Body spray/lotion:: Lotion haha
Cash/check:: Cash
Pillows/blankets:: Pillows.
Headache/stomach ache:: Stomach ache.
Paint/charcoal:: paint
Chinese food/mexican food:: Chinese
Summer/winter:: Either or.
Snow/rain:: Rain.
Fog/misty:: misty
Rock/rap:: Rock.
Meat/vegetarian:: meat
Boy/girl:: Well Boy to hang out with, girls don't like me much for some reason otherwise I'd hang out with them.
Chocolate/vanilla:: Vanilla, I almost hate chocolate.
Sprinkles/icing:: Icing.
Cake/pie:: pie
French toast/french fries:: French fries.
Strawberries/blueberries:: strawberries
Ocean/swimming pool:: swimming pool
Hugs/kisses:: Kisses definitely...too bad tho
Cookies/muffins:: Cookies.
p33n/bewbz:: wtf?
Wallet/pocket:: Wallet
Window/door:: Window
Emo/goth:: Goth
Pink/purple:: Purple
Cat/dog:: dog
Long sleeve/short sleeve:: Short Sleeve
Pants/shorts:: Pants
Winter break/spring break:: Spring break
Spring/autumn:: autumn, i love autumn
Clouds/clear sky:: Clear sky.
Moon/mars:: Moon
FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?:: actual friends a couple
What are their names?:: I'm only naming the good ones.Steve A. Krissy, Steve N, Greg, Tony, Heather, Lizs, Dan
Do you have a best friend?:: No
Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: of course
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: More guy friends, girls don't wanna be around me for the most part.
Have you ever lost a friend?:: Yea, I regret it every day
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: Yes.
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:: Rape oOo, lol that works
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:: Yep, and that takes alot
Whats the nicest thing you've ever done for a friend?:: No idea, I try to be a good guy to them all the time
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: No idea
Do you miss any of your old friends?:: Sometimes
What friend have you known the longest?:: Prolly Dan or Steve N.
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:: Yes.
If so, what is it?:: Getting in fights with Ash / Lindsey
How often do you spend time with your friends?:: A lot.
Do any of your friends drive?:: Most of em
Has a friend of yours ever died?:: Nope
Whats the dumbest thing you've done with a friend?:: Can't think of just one
What do you think your friends think of you?:: Some of em I'm not sure nemore others...idk ask em
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:: You already asked me this
If you have, with who?:: Julie
Are you single?:: unfortunately
Are you in a relationship?:: unfortunately
If so, for how long?:: jesus christ you're persistant
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: Well if what my ex says is true then no, but I think there is...I know you're out there somewhere out theeeeere <3 OLP
What is your idea of the best date?:: Just hanging out w/ someone at the mall or something then at the end of the night laying in bed close together watchin a movie just enjoying every moment
What was your first kiss like?:: Awkward
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: ...
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: No, life is meaningless without it really
Whats the best experiance you've ever had with the opposite sex?:: Prolly watchin Sleepy Hollow with Julie, not really watchin the movie but just being with her, or Layin down lookin at the stars with krissy...except for gettin stuff in me eye blah
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: Yes
Have you ever been dumped?:: Yes.
Have you ever dumped someone?:: No, dont have the heart
Whats the most sexual thing you've done with the opposite sex?:: lol thats a little personal
WORD ASSOCIATION
Slippers:: uncomfortable
Hat:: baseball
Hard:: wood
Free:: me
Space:: open
Taste:: sense
Good Charlotte:: suck

Red:: passion
Deep:: hole...haha
Heart:: recouperating
Cord:: gord
Cheese:: Mmmmm
Rain:: sexy
Work:: stupid
Pedal:: bike
Head:: lol, yea penis
Bed:: magical ;)
Fluff:: sandwiches
Hardcore:: porn
Race:: white
Knife:: protection
Jump:: ledge
I....
am:: Kyle
want:: a gf
need:: to pee
crave:: nothing i can have
love:: you ;)
hate:: gangsta's
did:: nothing
feel:: angry
miss:: Julie
am annoyed by:: gangsta's
would rather:: be attractive
am tired of:: not being attractive
will always:: be confused
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?:: Metal
What time is it now?:: 4:24
What day is it?:: Tuesday.
Whens the last time you called someone?:: Today I called my mom to give her a message :)
How much money do you have right now?:: like 40 bucks.
Are you hungry?:: No
Whatcha doin?:: Doing this god damn survey still
Do you like parades?:: Not really, if i was with someone, sure
Do you like the moon?:: Yea, it's pretty
What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: Pee.
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: most words are
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: Mess with people's will power, it's the only thing God can't do
Have you ever had a picnic?:: Yea
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?:: YES and it was hard :(
What about sock em boppers?:: Never had em
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: Yea
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:: yes
pretty?:: in no way whatsoever
sarcastic?:: yes
lazy?:: YES
hyper?:: Sometimes.
friendly?:: Of course.
evil?:: a lot.
smart?:: i can be
strong?:: yea, when i want to be
talented?:: not really.
dorky?:: yes
ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW
high:: Matty P
skip:: No idea
dance:: Steve
lonely:: Kyle...yea
pen:: Julie
flower:: Krissy :)
window:: Christine
psycho:: Steve
brain freeze:: Tony
orange:: Bwian Muwway
sassy:: Lyndsi
jelly:: Amy...ugh
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide:: against
love:: For.
drunk drivers:: Against.
airplanes:: for
war:: for
canada:: For.
united states:: for
rock music:: For.
gay marriage:: dont care
school:: For.
surveys:: For.
parents:: For.
cars:: For.
killing:: truthfully, against torture: for
britney spears:: for.
coffee:: for, w/out it no dunkaccino Mmmmmm
pants:: Against haha.
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?:: yes
Play strip poker?:: no
Run away?:: probably not
Curse at a teacher?:: wouldnt be a first
Not take a shower for a week?:: no
Ask someone out?:: i learned my lesson for askin someone out...it hurts
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: what's it matter? fuck them
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: yes
Go scuba diving?:: no
Write a book?:: yea
Become a rockstar?:: I wish.
Have casual sex?:: Like with a stranger? ugh
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:: i dont know, whatever is in the shower
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?:: bout month ago
What kind of computer do you have?:: Dell.
What grade are you in?:: Freshman in college.
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: never get popcorn.
Or just make out?:: never been to the theaters and made out with some1...done so in a persons house while watching a movie
How many posters do you have in your room?:: 2
How many cds do you have?:: hundreds
What time is it now?:: 4:35

Holy shit, what a long survey

I would die for you I've been dying to have you by my side to know that you're mine

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 18:59:28 GMT

I've been having people bitch at me, one person in particular haha to update my LJ so I decided to take the time to do so. Yesterday wasnt very exciting. I tried to put together a grill for my dad, I become confused as fuck and gave up. So I went over to Dino's where he was making and umbrella of some kind for his wife, Liz's, Birthday. After he was done we took a trip to the mall and got her the 1st season of Alias...never heard of the show. He was short $10 so being the guy I am, I gave em $10 out of my pocket. Came back to his house and he made some calls and we went to see his sister in law...she is so fuckin hot it's unbelievable. She works at Fridays...not sure which one but omg it's insane how good she looks. Then we played Champions of Norath for a couple of hours then told em I had to leave. He wanted to know why I had to go, he immediately said "pussy?" I hesitated and laughed and said no. Then he said "ooooh gonna hang out with the fellas?" Then I told em yep and I was on my way out the door. Gotta love that guy, he has such a one track mind. He likes the most weird porn...save that for another time haha.
So then I went back home and saw a message from Krissy that said steve couldnt go to the softball game so in turn i wouldnt be going...just because if I went to her softball game by myself it would have been weird plus I doubt she wanted me there anyway so whatever. I stayed home for like an hour then steve IMed me and told me to come over so I did
Over Steve's house he went over all the song titles and album names for his boy band F.A.G.Z. There were some fuckin hilarious ones such as you+me-you=the band. Then of course like any other day Steve wanted to go to the mall, so we did. Did practically nothing except bought some kid cigarettes. Went back home then later on went back to the fuckin mall to pick up my sister, I was pissed. she's so inconsiderate of others, I swear to fucking Christ if she wasnt my sister...ugh. Came back home and Krissy was done eating so we went to the track. It was ok, she didnt think so for some reason which she won't tell me. We walked around for an hour or so then went home. She gave me a hug b4 leaving the car, i really think I crushed her chin but she says i didnt, so whatever.
As for today I woke up at 12:30 about and have done absolutely nothing except ate and took a shower. Later on tonight I plan to go to the movies with Steve and Krissy, but when we go all depends on Krissy's softball game. It should be interesting to see Steve though since he's loves VD(Vin Diesel). I think he's gonna pass out from orgasming too much haha. That's all I have to say, I don't know why I bother to update noone probably reads this.

Walked around my good intentions...found that there were none

Sat, 19 Jun 2004 05:22:02 GMT

Yesterday I had to go into school at 8:30 in the morning because we had yet another rehearsal for graduation, which was being held at 6:00 later that day. we went through all the procedures and was out of there at about 10:00. I then went home and did god knows what until like 2 when I went over Krissy's to watch Who Framed Roger Rabbit. It was such a great movie, it's just a shame that we couldn't watch it because Krissy's TV sucks and was all dark. Oh well we ended up talking the whole time and tried to take pictures which didn't go over too well haha. Every time we tried to take a picture, I usually fucked it up by either closing my eyes and looking like a pirate, i was told haha. Despite not being able to watch Roger Rabbit it was still a good time, then again it usually always is when I hang out with her. So then she got a call from Lindsey and they decided to go to A&A or as I call it A1 haha so we decided to try and pick her up. It was much more difficult than you might think. We went there and we saw Lindsey's mom so we drove away as fast as we could (on account Lindsey's mom is Hitler and thinks Krissy is a slut and I'm a goth who rapes little 13 yr olds) and went around the block then when we went back around she was gone! So we went to the restuarant to see if she was there, she wasnt so we went back to her house she wasn't there either. Back to A&A and there she was, with her mom. So Lindsey walks over to my car and Krissy gets out, meanwhile I sit in the car hesitating whether I should get out since I'm such a goth and I do nothing but bad things. But Krissy tells me to get out, so I do and we go inside. They order stuff and I get a glass of water because I wasn't hungry plus I wouldn't have time since I had to go to graduation soon. So they ate and in the middle of their meal I had to go. Krissy yelled at me and told me she had to get a picture of the 3 of us together, yet again like any other picture I'm in, it was a complete and utter failure. I then went home to get ready for my graduation. I realized something, I dont look 1/2 bad all dressed up, but I dont know how to tie a tie haha.
Once I get all the complications out of the way such as getting dressed I get in my car and drive to school to graduate. We go into the auditorium, most of us are like praying that it doesn't rain so we don't have to stay inside the gym, cuz it's really fuckin hot in there and we all would have like died if we stayed in there. Thankfully the rain did not happen so we began our procedure of walking out to our seats to hear the pledge and the national anthem. Richard, Mike, and Tim gave their speeches. I think Mike had the best one, Tim's was just long and drawn out...nonetheless it was still good. So we took our seats and all this other bullshit happened and they began to call the names to get their diploma. The first kid to get his was sooooo funny. He was fuckin HUGE, and like noone cheered for him, so some people pitied him and cheered. More names went then came mine next. There's 3 people with the last name green in my grade, it's crazy. But I'm by far the coolest and best looking ;) haha So my name is called supposedly Krissy, Jocey, Tony, Steve, Jake, Keezer, and my family were screaming at the top of their lungs for me but I didn't hear anything. So i get my diploma, no more of that shithole! Then I got a flower and some guy took my picture, like all other pictures I'm in it probably came out horrible. The rest was boring just waiting for people to get their diploma then after graduation was fun. I walked around like I was cock of the walk haha. I know alot of people, people were coming out of nowhere hugging me and trying to take pictures with me. Frank actually shook my hand, I was surprised, all he does is make funny noises I didn't know he would do that. Bucholz gave me a hug, although he nearly tackled me. I had to brace myself as I saw him running towards me.
So after that me Krissy and Tony went to the parking lot and got in my car. I felt bad cuz the car was already full and I couldn't give Steve, Keezer, or Jake a ride home.:( So we left, the traffic was aweful. Of course Tony had to be a pain in the ass and wanted to go to McDonalds cuz he was dying of thirst. We go thru the drive through and get him a cup of fruitopia, the fruit drink brewed by hippies, and in the line I see Mr. Laden, my 7th grade english teacher. I unbuckle my seat belt and hang out the window and start screaming at him. Tellin him I just graduated and asked about what he was doing. I got to the pay window then Chuck came out! I talked to him for a bit then got Tony's drink and we were off. Fuckin pain in the ass, he could have waited 5 minutes for when he got home to get a drink, haha Oh well I still love that guy. So I drop him off, he stumbles out of the car like the fat piece of shit he is haha and Krissy gets in the front seat. I back out of the driveway and I notice that she's not sayin anything. She's just sitting there with her hand on her face lookin out the window. I try to strike conversation but that was to no avail. I asked her if somethin was wrong, she said yes but never said what. I still have no idea what was buggin her haha. There was no point in sitting in silence so I put on Unloco and skipped to "Failure". I love that song so I had to sing along, quietly of course. Apparently Krissy heard me singing, and that was the reason it prevented her from breakin out into tears. I never thought my singing voice would be somethin to stop a person from crying haha. Now I need to become a lead singer to a band :) We came to her house, and not knowing what was bugging her, I still gave her a hug and she went into her house. I then went home to a graduation party that was being held for me, which absolutely sucked. I would have been better off if I went to project graduation. The only good thing that came of that night was my cousins telling me they were gonna pay for my first tattoo. I think I'm gonna get the distubed believe logo on my arm. Either that or a celtic sun, I'm not sure yet...gimme some input on your suggestions. So I went to sleep and at about 3 in the morning I got a phone call from Mark and some other girl who called herself Shelly, when I'm pretty sure it was Kristin Cerutti. They said somethin to piss me off or bore me so I hung up and went back to sleep. That phone call was not cool, cuz it took me a long time to get back to sleep.

So what if I lost everything, would you want me if I was a failure?

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 02:46:55 GMT

Today wasn't that bad again. It seems as the days get closer to graduation, the better things get. We had another recital type thing. We did the same thing we did yesterday basically, but at a faster pace. This time we got our cap and gowns though. They look so aweful! The cap makes me look like an even bigger dork than I already am. the gown is a small, and its still gigantic on me. Their solid green, and the tassel is green and white. The hat is too small though, its such a complete bitch to get my hair underneath it. I don't even have that much hair either. I'm gonna look like such a loser with that thing on, and with friends takin pictures of me I'm never gonna hear the end of it haha. But the ones that are gonna be in the audience still have to go to high school next year and I'll be done with it so I dont care really. Plus it's all in good fun so yet again I won't care. Also there's gonna be hundreds of of other people wearing the same exact thing as me so it's not like I'm gonna be alone. Gonna be with all my friends so thats gonna be cool. I can't wait to see if someone does something really stupid and gets pulled fromt he ceremony or arrested. I really hope someone does, thatd be hilarious. But I have to wake up AGAIN tomorrow morning for another recital at 8:30 for like an hour, its so god damn pointless. Oh well, by the end of the day tomorrow I'll be done with high school, no more of that shit.
Anyway I went home for a couple of hours and did random shit, talked with people online and whatnot. Then at about 1:00 I picked up Bucholz and we went to Dicks, haha. He got a glow in the dark dodge ball, some tennis balls, and a pair of shorts. I was thinkin about gettin a soda, but never did. So then we came back to my house where he went on my sn and talked to people on my buddylist, acted like a complete asshole...kinda like me, and got most of the people he talked to angry or really confused. then i came on and talked to people, cleared things up and foiled his evil plans. I played the drums for him, actually I just made as much noise as I possibly could. He put on prison by SOAD and we both started to sing it, haha that was...interesting.
So after that we went to adam's house and played some baseball again. It was crazy, krissy and steve wanted to watch us play for some reason so i picked them up and i had to pick up practically everyone else that was playing. I cant wait until other people get their license. So when we got there everyone was skating for like 10 minutes then Bucholz yelled at them and we started a game, it was pitiful. We played 2 on 2 with an automatic pitcher. It took forever to get an out but then some more people joined us and the game got better. I was doin real well batting today, and of course i was awesome defensively so I had a good game today. Steve wasn't lookin, he was lookin through Krissy's yearbook so I decided to throw the ball at him. All the way from left field I hit him perfectly. If the yearbook hadnt been in his lap I woulda hit him square in the nuts. Haha i never expected to hit em. Bucholz had to leave at 4:30 so we only got to play for like an hour. I woulda liked to play for a longer amount of time.
So then I brought Steve and Krissy home and later I got Krissy again and we went over Tony's to go swimming. I wore my stripper pants and b4 i got in the pool i ripped them off :) It was not cool swimming in boxers tho, they kept on going up and it was a tad too revealing for my liking, or ne1 elses im sure haha. His nephew was in the pool, he was so cool. He was a little kid and he called me a funny name, i cant remember what he called me though, damn it! I made a laugh and then krissy said it sounded like Scooby doo so i did it again and the kid was amazed and started to say Roooby rooby roo uncontrollably. Tony's parents made hot dogs and hamburgs i didnt eat anything cuz I dont like eatin in front of people plus i just ate some taco bell and i wasnt hungry. We were playin volleyball and the ball had been hit out of the pool so i went to go and get it. I climbed up the ladder, and 1/2 way up i slipped and fell and hit my shin. It hurt so bad! It hurt for the rest of the time I was there. Then the ball went out of the pool again and tony tried to be lazy and get it without leaving the pool but in his attempt he flipped over the side of the pool and fell on the ground. Then Tonys friend came over and they had a smoke and we all got out of the pool and went home. That was the end of the night and I'm here now. Overall good day...

I think about your face and how I fall into your eyes

Wed, 16 Jun 2004 03:19:56 GMT

Alright so today wasnt that bad, with the exception of the recital thingy. I played some baseball with some of my friends. I only hit one homerun though, I sucked at batting today. But I was catching everything, so I made up for it defensively. It was really hot out today and i was sweating alot. Good lose weight, I need to do so really badly.
Then I came back home for maybe a half an hour to cool down a bit. then I went out with Krissy. We went to the mall in search of the new Pillar CD, which they didn't have! So we went into Digital Mayhem and to no surprise we found Steve. So we just sat there (I stood) and watched steve play his game and just talked about random things. I signed my friend, Mike's, yearbook there so that was cool. Also i saw my nazi friend, haha hes so cool. We kept on teasing Krissy for being so young and just entering Maloney next year and the fact that she has a full day of school tomorrow, plus she has to go to the last day of school, which no one ever goes to, haha but it's still cool, I still love her and she's cooler than like all the people I know.
Then at about 7:30 Me and Krissy left the mall and went and dropped off Strangeland at Blockbuster, that movie sucked. i was expecting so much more and it let me down, that whore of a movie. Then we went to Mearl's to try to find the Pillar CD, and they had it, so I picked it up and bought it. I'm listening to it now and it's awesome so far. Before I got this CD all I had been listening to was the new my chemical romance CD that Krissy let me burn :) its such a good CD. So after I got the CD we came back to my house and got bored. There was nothing to do, really. Steve was home and I didnt feel much like drivin all the way over to get steve again. So we just stayed here and talked with him online and had a debate as to who loves steve more, me or Krissy. I say it's me and I think Steve would definitely agree. Then Krissy layed down on me bed and I started to throw stuff at her. That was fun, and she got up and tried to beat me up or something and my dog, Taco, got pissed so he bit krissys pants and ripped them. Then I cut off the dangling piece of jeans with my knife and we started to throw that around. We tried to find out Jocey's phone number but we couldn't so we called Tony and it just so happened he was on the phone with her. So he put on the 3 way ;) phone thingy and we all talked at the same time over the phone. I put mine on speaker so Krissy could talk too :) The whole time it was basically "Jocey I love you" "I love you too" then each person would say they loved another person over and over again. Then they didn't wanna talk to us anymore cuz they dont really love us :( haha. Soooo Krissy made me put on echo and said I had to sing it to her, but I know that's a horrible idea cuz I have probably the worst singing voice ever. Wow I just got up to get a kleenex and I ran into the door...that hurt. Anyway, after I played echo without singing a single word she like almost fell asleep on my exercise machine, she thought it was soooo comfotable but i didnt think so. So then more time passed and she looked up taco on the google images section and we decided it'd be good to go to taco bell. So we did she got a #9, whatever that is...she freaked out cuz she got a soda with her meal she was so surprised. I got a chicken quisidilla, those things are so awesome. I don't think I can ever get tired of those things. So then I dropped off Krissy and came back home. That's about it, im done boring you bye